Received a call from Trav at around 6.55 pm, a guy that I used to date 3 years back. He sounded crucially wanting to meet me. Told him I can only see him after 8.30 as I am fasting today and I need time to break fast.
I went to the nearest Petronas station where he had waited me there for about few minutes. Upon seeing my car, I saw him walked out of his car and I parked next to him, he got into my car and vaguely smiled at me. He looked so gloomy.
'So, what do you wanna see me about?' I asked skipping the ritual how-do-you-do.
’Did u cry when I decided to break up with you?’ Was his first sentence that put me to shock.
’Why did u ask?’ Me being myself, I would always answer question with question while my saliva rushing down my throat.
’I caught Lynden in bed with another guy’ He said, chokingly deep. I could barely hear him.
Moment of silent.
Wow!
He dumped me over Lynden and she happened to be one of my good friends. I wasn't in the country for 3 weeks when they started to get chummy. Not that I am angry, I WAS upset. I WAS. But not anymore, I got over him and yeah that was just it. When I returned from my 'sabbatical', Trav just called me up and told me blatantly that he’s no longer into me and that he and Lynden were right for each other and they sorta like reading the same page kinda... yada yada yada…
I hardly commented on anything just now, I just let Trav do the talking. Truthfully, I couldn’t even find a word to begin with. He kept on talking about Karma, that what goes around comes around, and that he had hurt me and now it’s his turn.
'You mustav felt the same as I do now' Trav looked at me. With that hopeless look.
'Look Trav. Its not about you and me, its about you and Lynden. I’m out of the picture now.' The longest sentence I’ve ever spoken.
For about half an hour after my last line, I just sit there and watched Trav… cried….. I was so sure that there must be a lot of reasons why he cried.
He took my left hand and gently gripped my fingers. I could sense the message he was trying to convey over eventhough he didnt utter a single word. He regretted things.
unfaithful men are destined to be with unfaithful women.
ReplyDeleteYeah right, karma. The most famous term in the romance world when somebody caught himself/herself in the middle of nature's way of casting a boomerang. It'll be coming back at you, no matter what you did, either it was good or bad. (hey this is my words, you'd better leave some credits to Sir Pok Deng whenever you're quoting this)
ReplyDeleteI reckon this as an outcome of Bollywood influence towards our everyday lives when everybody started to adopt that karma word. Why not pembalasan? Does it sound better than karma?
Hmmm.. I don't know, miss.
It's an overused term like the most cliche phrase in humanitarian history which is Everything happens for a reason.
Anyway, miss Dottie with Dots, were you searching for me through Facebook? He he.
Chan,
ReplyDeleteI wish I could tell that straight to his face... hence the title 'words i couldnt say' :|
Dear Sir,
ReplyDeleteTry as I may, I could never justify why I did what I did. This is embarrassing... Haha! But I'm just like that cat that you whacked its head cuppla years back. I too have curiousity and due to that curiousity of mine I googled you out. And what I found was a brand of "Sir Pok Deng" on Facebook. A fan club. I gotten more curious that I clicked the link suggested on that 'face' and it brought me to you :)
Do you know how much I loathe that 'traffic report' on your page? It hesitates me to explore more of 'you' :p
And as for Travis, well, all i can say is that I'm glad for what has happened and what did not happen between me and him...
I write in partial anonymity. Some people know me and others not. Well, it's glad to know that you googled me (just like what others did).
ReplyDeleteOkay now you should know a bit Arabic. I was the only person in this world carrying the name given by my aunt. You won't find any similarity even you travel far to the end of the world.
Here's my name:
"Blue diamond" ... "religion".
Once you'd found out those two, put a 'ud' word in between of those two to complete the puzzle. Hit search. I'm somewhere out there.
"just like what others did' << thanks, that surely has made me feel much better... hehe
ReplyDeleteArabic translation of blue diamond and religion huh? that would be an ice kacang. I'm good at deciphering codes :D
I'll see you somewhere out there Sir :)
DwD: Everything happen for a reason. Anyhow, the last paragraph is just the perfect ending. I love it.
ReplyDeleteSPD: For a second I thought I was reading another Dan Brown's :)
if i were u, i wouldn't let him hold my hand, let alone grip my fingers bcos my hand and fingers deserve to be hold by someone better...
ReplyDelete*cis kejamnya aku hahaha*
CikSekut, what can I say, I'm nice like that. :D
ReplyDeletehahaha bagus... andai mampu jadi nice... aku mampu jadi kejam kut :p
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