:: R.I.P ::

Losing someone you love is like reading a good book for the first time. You devour each page with such intense emotions, filling its contents into every inch of your being.The ambiguity both confuses and amuses you. But as your eyes travel from sentence to sentence and your fingers flip page by page, and your palm gripping the sturdy binding, you find yourself closer and closer to the end. You know its coming. And you will never read the book the same way again.

The lady who cleans the office lost her husband to a cardiopulmonary arrest about a month ago. 

It has already been a month, she's still grieving. She has lost her everyday thing. She came in to work the other day and I handed her some money that the colleague and I managed to collect.  

Upon handing her the envelop, she wrapped her arms around my back, slowly she broke down and cry. That painful cry, like there's a hole in your heart and no one else could fit in like it bleeds every time you breathe in.

My hijab was wet with her tears and mine.

:: Have You Ever? ::

.... feel like you want someone to give you a real tight hug, like break-rib-cage-tight, whenever you're feeling down, and tell you that everything's gonna be okay that even the darkest night will end and hand you a cup of tea, and a few million ringgit?

Have you ever?

:: Red Cherry Lipstick ::

I put on a red cherry lipstick today.

One of the specialist was on the elevator with me this morning.  Just me and him, and out of the thing he could say to me was 'kenapa lawa sangat hari ni?'

I replied 'selama ni saya tak lawa ke?'

He replied back 'nampak kemas hari ni.'

I couldn't help but to ask again 'selama ni saya selebet ke?'

We went quiet.  And boy! That was awkward.  

And when I got into the office and told my mateys about it, we all agree its the red cherry lipstick.

:: Haven't Come Up with a title yet ::

"Almost a decade ago, I stared at a friend in utter astonishment when she refused to tell another friend that we saw her husband walking with a PYT. Riled up in the spirit of sisterhood, I questioned her rationale. Coolly, she said, 'I am not going to be the bearer of ill tidings and I surely don't want her to cry on my shoulder. It would be an epic drama.' I did not appreciate her attitude at the time. How time flies and how perspective changes with life experience. Presently, I agree with her action unanimously.  It boils down to one thing, kindness."

Kak Ina has that on her FB status today.

My comment:

I certainly do not want to be the one who spill the spoil beans out. That poor soul will certainly could not look at the husband the same way once she found out even though she decided to forgive him. Kan? And the husband even though he regretted it to his bone marrow, his truth will always become questionable.

Justly,  people make mistake.  Commit sins.  But it is not something for people to brag especially to tell other people about it. Its a private thing.

Privacy is like eating or breathing, it is a necessity, one of those life's basic requirements.  Everybody has a secret they would pray hard to be always remain untold.  It's either we are trusted with one or its our own juicy stuff.  

All I'm saying is, if we see or hear about someone else committing a sin, we should always try to ignore it. Instead of spreading it, we should hide it and keep it a secret. 

It is reported that the Prophet (pbuh) has said:

Whosoever covers (the sins of) a Muslim, Allah covers (his sins) on the Day of Judgment. 

(Reported by Bukhari).

It goes the same with praying for other people's misery.  Sometimes people took the most pathetic measure to make themselves feel better.

There was once a drunkard by the name of Abdullah who was brought to our Prophet (pbuh) and the Prophet (pbuh) ordered that Abdullah should be whipped.  And one of those men said Abdullah should be cursed for his unrequited habits of drinking.  And may Allah put him to shame.

But the Prophet (pbuh) said:

Do not curse him, all I know that he loves Allah and His messenger.  Do not be a help to a Shaytaan against your brother.

(Reported by Bukhari).

What we learnt from the story of Abdullah, is that, no matter what a person does, as long as its not something idolatry, he should not be denied.  And we are in the wrong if we pray for Allah against him.  

Bottomline, stop damaging other people with our hatred.  It's enough that we hate the person but its better if we just let it go.

:: Hurt ::

Sometimes, people do not expect to be happy all the time, they only wish not to be hurt.