:: And the Reason is You ::

"... and for the life of me Mila, get yourself a nice handbag.  I mean a handbag.  Not a diaper bag.  You been carrying a diaper bag since Alyssa was born.  She's 5 now, not like she's still wearing diapers.  No wonder men refuse to make a pass on you.  And you drive your mom's soccermom's car."  

Yay!!! My gay cousin's back in town.

He just gave me plenty of reasons to go shopping. For a handbag.  And a car.

:: Alone ::

I have the office all to myself.  Currently the only person using up oxygen on this floor is me. Apart from the familiar hum of my old HP laserjet printer and the the noise of the blower just above my head, it’s unconditionally quiet here.  FirstI thought this is the best time to get things done, but its already 11.47 am and I’m finding quite the contrary. I can’t get anything done.

:: Salam Aidil Fitri ::

I'm at the moment waiting for the ketupat on the stove.  While waiting I thought of writing few lines.

I have been quite busy with work and all and got tired pretty fast.  Probably it was because of Kuantan traffic which is getting impossible these few days due to Eid .  Well it has been impossible since Ramadhan the 1st in fact.  Everybody is going everywhere.  

Went to buy some stuff for cheesecake and every store I went to has 'lagu raya'.  I just have soft spot for raya songs especially Aisyah's 'Pulanglah'.  This song, it just gives me hibbie jibbies.  Blended with the sweetness of Aisyah's voice.  

Well chickadees, to those who will be driving/riding/hopping back to your hometown, have a safe journey.  

I would like to seek for forgiveness for all my wrongdoings,  tersilap bicara, tergurau tak tentu hala.  Do forgive me.

Well enjoy Aisyah and hope to see y'all after hari raya in one piece :D

:: This Day - 5 Years Ago ::

Before I was a Mom,  I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts and my body.  I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside of my body,  I didn't know that having something so small could make me feel so important,  I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment, or the satisfaction.

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.  I never sat up late hours of the night watching a baby sleep.  I never got up in the middle of the night to make sure everything was okay.

I didn't know how fun I could feel to feed a baby.  I never knew that something so small could effect my life so much,  I never knew that I could love someone this much,  I didn't know I was capable of having such feeling.

I'm blessed with an angel
Like heaven might send
And I call her Alyssa
My daughter and friend

Happy 5th birthday munchkin.

:: Some Guys Have All the Luck ::

I spotted few Uni students driving BMWs, one drive a Murano, lotta Peugeot 407s.  Man! What would their dad be driving?

It might be their parents' but yes, my prime question:  what would their parents be driving?

As some suffer from current global economic issues (me for instance. I dont even own a car), some can drive a BMW to school.  Most of them are under a scholarship.  But for a medical students which fees are like a bombshell, I dont quite understand where do they get their money for gas.  And its a BMW I'm talking about here.  Sekali press the throttle, 50 ringgit melayang.  And they are under a scholarship (again).

I so envy em kids.